argh! too much in my mind!

right soooo
yeah, first blog on this thing
i actually had doubts on whether i wanted to sign up or not coz i don't blog sometimes but when i do its usually on myspace
and i'm kinda getting bored with it so i finally decided to get an account here considering i don't wanna use my myspace as a blog all the time considering theres more to do on it than blog.
i already posted a blog on it yesterday and it was really long so i couldn't be bothered to do another one the next day coz then ppl will think i got nothing to do than blog lol
so yeah, as it says on the title, i do have alot of stuff on my mind at the mo.
just really stupid stuff lol
so i don't care whether ppl will think its a waste of time and blah, i'm just coming out with whats on my mind.
So yeah, first up, i've been calling my good friend, brenda quite alot during the summer holidays and they've been really long conversations (like over 40 mins)
and i know i'm gonna get in big trouble for it when the fone bill comes in
its gonna suck coz i just finished paying back my parents for something bought recently and now i probably have to pay them back again
i just want a job, seriously, i got college but i need a part time job for money coz its not a good feeling when u go with friends and they have more money than you and they're like buying anything they see.
it makes you jealous and angry lol
so i need one and i'm kicking my ass to get one but some ppl don't accept easily and also my mum wants me to concentrate on education, but if she wants me to stop nagging for money then let me get a job! lol
and maybe i can pay the fone calls i made lol
the only reason why i'm thinking about it now is coz i just talked to her earlier for 57 mins!
fuck! and it'll be the last time aswell!
i just got bored and after 5 mins talking, i got blank and talked about stupid crap!
waste of time lol but its good to keep in contact but not with getting my ass kicked in mind!

so yeah thats problem 1, still coming to haunt me

next theres a sleepover at my friends tomorrow
i wanna go coz i got fuck all to do tomorrow
but the thing with parents is (and when its my parents, its strict parents)
mine sometimes say no
well my mum does but my dad is ok with anything sometimes
i'm the youngest so i understand why they don't let me out as much and i'm the only girl with 2 older bros so it kinda sux
now theres so many options
i can only ask my dad and if he says yes straight away, then i'm good to go (thats if my mum doesn't stop us lol)
i can ask my dad but then he'd have to ask me to ask my mum and then i'd have to give up lol
or i could ask both and have to face a lecture about crap
so yeh, i'm hoping the first option will happen, i'm praying that it will happen lol
so hopefully, when my mum goes to work, it'll give me a chance to ask him.
you may think its easy with your parents but trust me
mine are hard to get by, well my mum is like suspicious with anything i do or anywhere i go
so its a drag sometimes

but yeh anywayz, thats problem 2 thats up my ass today

i think the last is probably ppl on msn
well some of my contacts
i hate when in the middle of a convo they go offline without saying bye or whatever
or take centuries to reply
i get annoyed with it alot now, and they're the ppl that msg me first!
so i really can't be bothered sometimes
and it really pisses me off at a point when you ask something or need something, they fuck off!
and the next day, they'll forget about it and the same thing will happen!
i think i do it sometimes and maybe i deserve it but i don't go offline
i'm either busy or sleeping when they msg me
and thats their fault coz they msg at a bad time lol

but yeah, its annoying and i really don't wanna bother on them
too gay in my books

so yeah, i think thats all i need to let out for now
i think this will be my official blog
so for now on, i'm just gonna post my crap on 'ere
i don't care on feedback and stuff, if i see a crap comment, i'll delete it
thats if i get any lol
its fricking 11:25pm! and i'm already sleepy!
probs from all the going out lol

anywayz,
adios burritos