what happens when u don't bring ur timetable to college

when my 1 hour and 30 minute break started i saw elwyne and hung out with for lunch but they had to go back to class so i basically spent like 10 mins with them

wasting like 20 mins of my break

i thought my class was at 12.15 so i decided to go out quickly with ramz and once we shopped around a bit it was 12 already so i was hauling my ass back to the college and the time i arrived there was 12.25 and when i finally arrived there was a different class going on and i looked at the timetable next to the door and my class wasn't til 12.45!!!!!

moodafooka ¬_¬

theeeen after that class i finished i thought my maths class was gonna be at 2pm so i spared the 10 mins i had at the ict suite, rushed back to the class and realized it was 2.15 instead

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a great annoying excercise...

YH! :D

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getting over it

she apologized for being a bitch about the whole just wanting to be friends thing and i couldn't possibly care now, i was just like yeh, don't care. you can feel bad but you won't feel bad for long.

seriously, 5 ppl liked this person!
and shes said no to all of them!
how could i possibly compete with those ppl? she even went out with one of em!

this person is 2 years younger than me and i know for a fact shes too good for me.

lost her virginity, already had sex with the same sex.

could never get to that point.

i only kissed a girl a couple of times and had sex twice. thats it.

argh! i just want a girlfriend! get over her!

fuck!

it's already over now

i texted her last nite
turns out she don't like me that way

just as i expected

so i've given up

and gone back to the way i was

she finally knows

in the way i was least expecting it lol
i was telling my friend how much i really like her and she was asking me to tell her but i was like, 'nah i can't, don't have the guts' then she was like ok, shall i like talk to her about stuff and then go onto the subject on what she thinks of you and go on from there

and i saw no problem in that

until she actually told her!

i told her she didn't have to go that far but it was too late and she knows

and its probably the worstest thing now

coz she doesn't know how to react, she didn't know what to say and stuff so that was one disaster already happening.

shes probs gotten over it now, coz shes off on myspace and doing whatever. my friend said she needs time to think about it and that but i think she isn't that bothered anymore

so it was all a waste of my time i guess

and i feel a whole lot down now

just really really reeally down

like the person finally knows u like them but it doesn't matter

i dunno what to do now

i can't forget about it coz its still eating me up inside

and the more she doesn't seem bothered about it, the more i feel like i don't like her anymore

this sux

i guess average???!

-22 = ghetto
23-33 = average
34-43=spoiled!
44 = way upperclass/rich

Check each that applys do u have:
[x] Mother
[x] Father
[] Sister
[x]Brother
[ ] Nephew
[] Niece
[x] Cell phone
[ ] Own bathroom
[x] Own room
[x] 2 story house
[ ] Swimming pool
[ ] Hot tub
[ ] Guest room
[x] Computer, Laptop or Desktop
[x] TV in your room
TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[ ] Fullsize or bigger bed..
[] More than 5 pairs of shoes
[x ] Sunglasses
[ ] Watch
[x] MP3 Player/iPod
[] PlayStation
[ ] xbox
[] Nintendo DS or PSP
[] Gameboy/ Advance
[ ] Gamecube
TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[ ] Basketball hoop
[ ] Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[ ] Ping pong table
[ ] Fooseball table
[ ] Trampoline
TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[] Nightstand
[x] Stereo in bedroom
[] DVD player
[ ] Have something from abercrombie and fitch or hollister
[x] Get $100 a month, btw thats £53.33 :]]
[ ] Shop at AE
[] Owns a Gucci, Dooney & Burke, LV, Guess, etc.
[] Wears Lacoste (perfume)
[] Parents give you credit card
TOTAL SO FAR:12

[] Job
[] Goes shopping at least every two weeks
[x] AIM/MSN/YAHOO
[] Camera
TOTAL SO FAR:13

[] electric or gas/scooter/motorcycle/car
[x] guitar/drums/bass guitar
[] Piano/Keyboard
[] Any other instrument
[] Hammock
[] Been on a cruise
[x] Traveled out of the state
[x] Had a personal trainer
[x] Expensive jewelry
[] Met a celebrity
TOTAL SO FAR:17

[] Straightener/curling iron
[ ] Been to a batting cage
[] Had 100$ at one time
[] Credit card or atm card,debit card
[x] Been to Europe
[ ] Been to Hawaii
[ ] Been to NYC
[ ] Been to Cali
[x] Been to Florida
[ ] Been to Las Vegas
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[] Car
[] Jet
[] camping
[ ] Been to 5+states in the US
[x] 100+ buddies on myspace
[x] More than one house
TOTAL SO FAR: 21

[x] Home cooked meal almost every day
[] Been in a limo
[] Been in a helicopter
[] Own a camcorder
[] Own a laptop
TOTAL:22

Now add it up!!!
then put ur # and wat u r!

till this day, i'm still annoyed

with those sluts kerrie and sarah!
i know i shouldn't, but i did go on their profile a few times and i read the comments kerrie left and i didn't know she could still be a bitch til now!

arghh! and i might see them next week!
the thought of being in the same room as them will just make me sick!
i heard sarah didn't wanna go but her mum is forcing her to go which makes it worse coz i don't wanna see her or her slut companion!

i hope all goes well next week.
nothing bad happening or embarassing.
i'll stick with my peeps and that.

anywayz, i feel like calling brenda now
shes always there to talk to when i need it.
and i need to tell her a few stuff

so later

i like her too much

everyday i think about her
everywhere i go, shes still on my mind
i get excited whenever she goes online
i get even more excited when she messages me

i wanna be with her
more than any other person i've had my heart set on
i wanna tell this person how i feel
but scared of what will be said back
will she feel the same way?
will she say no?
and i'll be one of those 5 ppl that have already had their heart set on her


i more than like this person
i love her
and i'd do anything to be with her
i wish she could see how much i feel for her
and understand the pain of not being with her

she will never truely know
and soon
i hope she does

Untitled

I wish I could forget you
But the image of your face is everywhere I go
It's too late, there's no fate
And I rather forget than to complicate
'Cause my heart is not set in the right direction
And I'm starting to lose all this affection
That I had, and I'm glad
That you found someone else when it could never be me

You were the one I was hoping for
Someone I could cherish and appreciate more
But that's gone, I'll move on
You were everything I had
Someone I was wishing for
But my dreams have been washed up on the shore
Now you're gone, I moved on
And I can never get you back

You were all that I had
And I can never get you back
The thought of you gets me mad
'Cause I can never get you back!

Rain

I look up
I feel the water drip from my face
I look down
I see a puddle of my disgrace

So help me
The rain won't stop falling on me
And it's getting harder to see
I feel ashmed of the person I've been
So I pray
That my sins will be forgiven today
And the darkness will begin to fade
So God will you please help me
And stop this rain from falling on me

It's so hard
My body feels much heavier now
It's not easy
To figure what this world is all about

You can't save me (you can't save me)
From hurting (from hurting)
From deserving (from deserving)
This pain that I feel everyday
And I'm searching (I'm searching)
I'm learning (learing)
Learning that life is always this way
So rain can you please come back some other day...

My Own Prison

Everyday is the same
I got nothing else to do
I sit by my window
Wondering what all my friends are up to
I know it's a waste of time
Staying here with nothing to do
But my parents hardly let me out
And there's nothing that I can do

I'm locked inside my own prison
I think it's something that I deserve
You could say it's not fair
But my lessons are never learnt

It's hard getting a job
My parents won't give me much
I'm just a slob
Staying in this room all day long
Time is passing by
And there's still nothing for me to do
This life is just too boring
And everything around me is starting to get annoying

I always cry thinking of
The memories I had back then
Where I could almost go out everyday
Having fun with my friends
Going to shops with my family
I miss those times so much
But now we're all getting older
And those times are fading away
I think I'll be stuck here
For the rest of my days

random song me and my bandmate wrote but didn't finish it

It looks like the one
Callum's brother tried to hump
His face was like he was trying to take a dump
He tried so hard to stop the cat from screaming
We could not believe what we were seeing

I'll be just fine
Coz when I look up
I see that kitty
Caught up in a tree

When we saw a cat up a tree
Trying to get a bird for free






and thats it lol

Last Day

song i wrote on my last day at my high school

Time has gone so fast
If I had the change
I'd live it back
To the start
Does this have to end?
Will I be able to see my friends
again

I'm not ready to go
I'm not ready to leave
I'm not ready for this
I'm not ready to start this all over again

I'll miss you
I'll miss everything we do
Do we really have to say goodbye?

Ms. Slade's Multiplications

Add me
And then subtract me
So I can get my
Multiplications
Multiplications
Multiplications

Why
Are you
Making fun of me
Fun of me
Fun fun f-u fun of me, so you can get your satisfaction

Ramsey, why aren't you learning your maths?
Stephanie, why are you making fun of my voice?
Brenda, why do you let anne-marie do such non-sense?
Kerrie, why do you laugh at anne-marie's impression of me?
Sarah, stop watching green wing and learn some maths?!
Sit down and learn some
Multiplications

Memory

I've been thinking too much about
Something not worth talking about
But everyday it becomes more aggravating
The touch of your skin is so relaxing
My mind is too caught up on you
And I just don't know what to do

'Cause I can't reminise, too caught up in this bliss
It's so shit, to even think about you
You don't matter at all

Get out of my mind
Erase thoughts left behind
'Cause I'm too caught up in the memory of you
Why can't you see
The person I'm starting to be
I'm still caught up in the memory of you

This is so annoying
It's really getting to be
I don't have the time to be thinking about someone like you
You're a waste of headspace
But you're hard to replace
There was no one as better than you

I can't reminise, too caught up in this bliss
It's so shit, to even think about you
You don't matter at all

Get out of my mind
Erase thoughts left behind
'Cause I'm too caught up in the memory of you
Why can't you see
The person I'm starting to be
I'm still caught up in the memory of you

I can't reminise, too caught up in this bliss
It's so shit
To even think about you
You don't even matter at all

Pain

I stand alone
Looking at these blood stained mirrors
Could I see a better vision of myself
Could it be any clearer
But I see, that there is no reflection
I think my existence is fading away

These days are so hard to get through
I'm slipping further away
And would you ever get to see through
The pain I feel everyday

I don't know what to do
So lost and confused
Would you feel sympathy
Or leave me abused
You're so cold

If I, fall down
Would you give me your hand?
If I, expressed
Would you even understand?

Run

You're too scared to face the problem
Instead of staying to solve them
You run
So far away

Why don't you run
You think it's the best thing to do
Why don't you run
It's all you ever do

Would you run
So far away
Leaving everything behind
All alone, no where to stay
Did it ever cross your mind
That you're weak
You're just begging for sympathy
Show no mercy

So selfish
You can't see
That this world is a misery
You will get nowhere
If you don't stand up for yourself
You're not the only one

If you run
You're leaving the worst pain with you
But if you run
The memory will stay with you
And if you run
You'll never get strong
If you run
You'll face the pain alone

Don't Leave

It's been cold days since you've been gone
And I'm stuggling to carry on
I'm getting weaker by the minute
Why's you leave? I still can't believe it

And I'm all alone
There's no one else to go to
And I'm trying to hold
My one last bit of hope

Don't leave
My life ain't complete without you
Don't leave
You're a long lost memory that's forgotten
Don't leave
This pain is too much for me
You're my only memory

These days aren't the same but my heart is not willing to change
It's on the same direction
What were you thinking? Letting my heart sink in your pool of deception

Don't leave
My life ain't complete without you
Don't leave
You're a long lost memory that's forgotten
Don't leave
This pain is just too much for me
You're my only memory

Inconsiderate
Such a shame
Am I the only the pawn in this game
Please stop holding me down
Such a fool
So severe
Fight me back and hold my tears
I'm so cold without you

Someday

There's too much pressure on my mind
I wanna leave this all behind
Start a new life
Make things right
And take back everything I held inside

Someday
Everything will change for me
I'm sick of living my life in shallow dreams
I'm breaking down
Falling too fast
Someday I'll stop living in the past

I'm starting a new path
Rewinding back to the start
Your words of discouragement
Has hit straight to the heart
I will not forgive you

Someday
Someday, a new path is on my way

Unite

Am I here?
Am I the only one?
I'm not so sure
Of what I've truly become
And these years, full of tears
We are fighting for
Ourselves because in this world
I'm not so secure

Will you be leaving me tonight?
Leave me alone in this fight
And now I'm dying here
Gone far away

Am I the fool?
Am I the jester?
So ridiculed
Could I feel better
For myself, and this world
Will we be hoping or choking on these words
You promised, you never kept your promises!

Am I done?
Are we the only ones in this world
Are we afraid?
'Cause tonight, we will unite
FIGHT!

Will you be leaving me tonight
Leaving me here to fight
And now I'm dying here
Gone far away

Does anyone wanna be alone?
Leave this world so cold
To make this place better
We have to fight!

Old Days (Change)

What's gone on in the world today
Simple lives have become busy days
And when I wanna go out, my plans are delayed
I don't think I'll ever see my friends
I hope this is not the end

This world is changing
Things are re-arranging
Why can't things be like the good ol' days
And when I go out, its not the same
I don't want to live a life derranged

Do you ever agree what I'm saying
Happy days have turned to suffering
And does anyone think like me
Think what this world could be

These chavs, I wished they die, stick a needle in their eye
Why does this have to be
Money gone to waste, people's lives are at stake
I wish things were like the old days

100 Facts bout me!

1. Full Name: Anne-Marie Felipe Kelly
2. Nicknames: VivaLaAnne!
3. Birthday: 18th April 1990
5. Zodiac Sign: Aries
6. Male or female: Female
8. School: St Joseph's
9. Occupation: Student
10. Residence: At home
11. MSN Screen Name: Take me away from these people watching from me just tell them im busy so fuck off and die
12. Hair Colour: Dark Brown
13. Hair Length: over my shoulders
14. Eye colour: Hazel
15. Weight: Duno
16. Height: probs 5'6''
17. Braces? Nope
18. Glasses? Nope
19. Piercings: ears
20. Tattoos: Nope
21. Righty or Lefty: Righty
___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Ramira Fernandez
23. First Award: sports day i think
24. First Sport You Joined: Kick Boxing
25. First pet: Dog
26. First Real Vacation: Philippines
27. First Concert: Alive concert thing @ skool
28. First Love: ...

___ Favourites___

29. Movie: Queen Of The Damned and Interview With A Vampire
30. TV programme: Spongebob
31. Colour: Blue
32. Rapper: The Game! blob lol and eminem
33. Band: Linkin Park
34. Song Right Now: Lostprophets - Always All Ways and Smile Empty Soul - The Hit, Chevelle - The Red
35. Friends: Brenda, Lisa, Simon, Emmanuela, Ramz, Jono
36. Sweet: Haribo's =P
37. Sport to Play: Basketball
38. Restaurant: Pizza Hut =P
39. Favourite brand: don't have one, i just wear whatever
40. Store: Blackwells, Prescence and HMV
41. School Subject: Music
42. Animal: PENGUIN!!!
43: book: interview with the vampire, the vampire chronicles
44:magazine: Kerrang!, rocksound and Metal Hammer
45. Shoes: adio

___Currently___

46. Feeling: Hungry
47. Single or Taken? Single
48. Have a crush: yush =[
49. Eating: want to be
50: Drinking: saliva
51. Typing: On Here n MSN
52. Online? Yes
53. Listening To: Element Eighty - Bloodshot
54. Thinking About: going to get something to eat
55. Wanting To: Go and get something to eat
56. Watching: myself typing this
57. Wearing: linkin park t-shirt, grey bottoms
___Your Future___

58. Want Kids? Yes
59. Want to be married? Yes
60. Careers in Mind: something involved in music
61. Where do you want to live: Somewere far far away from slough lol
62. Car: A nice 1

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

63. Hair colour: i don't mind but on guys i like blonde hair
64. Hair Length: don't matter
65. Eye colour: don't matter
66. Measureents: mrrr don't care
67. Cute or Sexy: don't matter coz i'm not much of a looker myself lol
68. Lips or Eyes: Both
69. Hugs or Kisses: Both
70. Short or Tall: Middle
71. Easygoing or serious: Easygoing
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both
73. Fatty or Skinny: not too much of either
74. Sensitive or Loud: Both
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: Both
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: A bit of both

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a Stranger: Yes
79. Had Alcohol: Yes
80. Smoked: yes
81. Ran Away From Home: was close to
82. Broken a bone: Nope
83. Got an X-ray: yea
84. Been with someone: no
85. Broken Someone’s Heart: I would never do that
86. Broke Up With Someone: no
87. Cried When Someone Died: Yes
88. Cried At School: Yes

__Do You Believe In___

89. God: yes
90. Miracles: Maybe
91. Love At First sight: yeh, just happened recently
92. Ghosts: Yes
93. Aliens: yes
94. Soul Mates: erm..yea suppose
95. Heaven: Yes
96. Hell: Yes
97. Angels: Yes
98.Kissing on The First Date: Yes
99. Horoscopes: Yes
wtf happened to 100?!??!

my day with lisa

today was actually pretty good
despite the fact we didn't do much it was alrite, its nice to be out with someone than staying at home doing nothing.
and if u wanna know if the person i liked came...?

didn't come after all =[
coz she had to work at her dad's pub

in a way i was relieved coz i wouldn't have to feel nervous but the bad side was not meeting her.

but later on, i actually did wanna meet her. i asked lisa if we could go to the pub but she said she didn't know exactly where it was.

but yeh i'll talk about the day

i was late on getting there to start off with coz i went to the shop to buy chewing gum then the walk itself was longer than i expected, i woulda brought my skateboard but i couldn't see coz of my hair so i arrived about 10 mins late which was ok with her coz she said she wasn't properly ready and i also had problems remembering the house number lol even though she told me it when i called her before i was gonna go.
but i was lucky enough to find it and she has that double door see through thingy and i saw the envelop there and it had the surname of her so i was like, 'this is defo it!' lol

and it was weird coming in coz i haven't been to her house in probs about 3 or 4 years. and the dog didn't hump me this time like the last time i went there so that was good lol

we went upstairs for awhile, was on the comp and shit and i was watching tv then her mum came in and gave us muffins =P and she knew about the dude liking me coz she heard us through audio! lol now a mum knows a secret lol

so after that, lisa wanted to go out and i wanted to see the cadets thing she goes to and its waaay small! but it is britwell so what more to expect lol

then after, we checked out the fun fair which didn't look bad, the only thing that caught my eye was the spinny cartwheel thingy. that was kool. =P

after that, we went to the shops, got some snacks, went back to the hill and talked and stuff. lisa told me about louise telling her i was bi which actually made me a bit angry coz louise was the first person i told and i actually trusted her at the time and she went off telling someone else and she actually thought i fancied her!
like i would fancy a fucking mouse!

so that goes to show, you can't trust anyone. and i will never put my fucking trust in her again. god knows who else she told!

but lisa told me something even more sickening about louise so i guess that makes it fair haha!

but yeh after our lil talk, we went to the playground and when we finally got there we didn't know what to do so we just went back to hers lol then went back on the comp, fooled around and she had to have dinner at 5.30 and we left there 5 mins before 5pm and walked together while we were walking her dog, bob.

and when we came to our final destination. the day came to end and it was over

well at least i thought it was when i was talking with emma online and when she found out i was from britwell (i actually thought she knew before lol) she wanted me to come with her to the fair and i was like, 'O_O!'

so heres another chance

buut wasn't even sure it was gonna happen

and it didn't

becuuuz lisa couldn't come coz of no money and she had to drop off a friend annnd probs wanted us 2 to go by ourselves anyway lol

and i couldn't go coz i had no money, mum and dad wouldn't lend me money, my dad and bro said it would be dangerous and coz i was back to my nervous stage lol

and she really wanted me to go with her which made me feel even more bad =[

but i didn't end up going and nor did she, she went to cadets instead like she was supposed to lol but yeh, sux really

3 missed opportunities to meet the person i really liked in one day

bad luck? *sigh* mebbe

eeeeeeek! =S

reason for the scary title is whats screaming inside my heart this very moment.

today i'm going to lisa's house in about 2 hours and 30 minutes and i'm shitting myself!

why?

well lets go to story mode, shall we?

lisa just invited me to go to hers yesterday morning and coz (like always) i have nothing else to do, i said yeah and i haven't been round hers in ages!

so we're all ready, just had to wait for the actual day til i read a bulletin on myspace from the person i like and said they had nothing to do on monday so here i was, stuck in between 2 choices. Shall i leave it and let this person find something else to do or be bored orrr invite this person with me and lisa and probs be even more bored!

and for some strange reason, i went with the second choice and the person said yes and of course, lisa was alrite with it alot lol

now here i am still shitting myself to this very moment of the thought of meeting this person for the very first time!

seriously, i really like this person and would do anything to be with this person! and thats what gonna make it so awkward!

i have bad experiences with meeting ppl for the first time.
espicially if its someone i like or chatted through msn alot.

like scott for example, we chatted a hella lot on msn and myspace before actually meeting up and when we finally did meet up, we hardly said hello to each other!

it took about 3 or 4 more meet-ups to actually get used to talking to each other but he wasn't still used to it but now i don't talk to him anymore. he was a moody cunt and i just can't be bothered.

but with this person its gonna be different coz i really like this person! scott was just a lil' something. not a huge humongus thing like this one!

i'm pretty used to meeting up with new ppl like with ramsey's mates, i never get nervous (well probably coz i don't fancy them) but argh! its gonna be soo different!

i'm not nervous of the fact that i'm meeting this person for the first time, i'm nervous at the fact that everything might not go so well and there'll be loads of awkward moments, i might even say something stupid or this person might even be as nervous as me!

and also, my friend hasn't exactly planned anything to do!
which is gonna be even more worse coz we're gonna be waddling around like penguins doing nothing! hopefully we'll think of something while we're there though.

but i must leave this for now, gonna take a shower and cool my head, try to relax and shit.

i'll tell ya later on how the day goes

thats if i'm not still not shitting myself from it all

what a fucking 2 days this was lol

well its 2:35am
i'll tell you the full reason why i'm up later but first i must tell you the crazy events that i've encountered today lol

friday was a disaster as i mentioned on the last blog, but then friday night was even more chaos!
seriously, drunk fags everywhere, first drunk emos, then chavs surrounded the outside of my house and then my mum asked me to go shopping for her to get some foood and in a way i coulda said no but i had nothing better to do so i was like, 'yeh sure' nothing bad could happen, heh? lol

well nothing bad happened, just the fact of being surrounded by drunks is a nightmare for me lol
i seriously hate being around drunk ppl
and even when i get drunk, i hate myself for it coz my friends might think i'm a total pisshead lol but seriously, tbh i can't handle my drink so i'm just out of it in a flash lol

but anywayz, moving on from that, it was fucking armageddon outside! you wouldn't believe the things i saw, fucking 40 yr olds where checkin these teenagers, ppl hanging from street lights, standing in the middle of the road, i even saw one chick outside my house passed out on the road!

i dunno what was up last nite but that was pretty fucked up lol

and it was a nag tryna get to sleep, i even left my tv on just to block out the noise which helped but kept waking me up which is due to making me sleep late.

i woke up at half 9am and went on the comp for awhile, got bored, watched tv, got bored even more so i went back to sleep =]

and as always, theres distractions, lil kids outside and my mum hoovering but lucky for me i had my mp3 player to block out the noise =D but after my mum finished hoovering i just couldn't sleep anymore lol so i woke up, had a shower and i'm alive!
then my mum asked me to go shopping with her and i had nothing better to do so might aswell (without the drunks this time =P)

we first went to kfc, got a 14pc. bucket and had to go back home coz we didn't want the food to get cold and even if we left til last it would be a nag bringing it back so we drove back home, ate our grub and then my bro asks if we could drop him off at slough so we waited for 20 mins or so for them to get ready, we went, dropped them off and blah then went straight to sainsbury's (still woulda been easier to go to tesco's though ¬_¬)

when we arrived and my mum parked, there was no other decent spot, well there was but my mum likes parking at the nearest point possible coz shes too lazy to walk far from the shop lol and the place she parked at was a mother and child space and she said i had to make baby noises and cry lol then i suggested getting the big trolley with the chair so i can sit on it lol (aww i miss those, they were uncomfortable but so nice lol)

but yeh, we done our shopping til my ma wanted to buy some snacks...at LIDLS! mrrr ¬_¬

and it took fricking ages just to get water for our water thingy (you get them at offices and that)
and some snacks but the cue was long apparently then we forget to get plasters for my bro coz of his nails (such a wuss lol) so my mum had to go back then i waited another 10 mins singing to good charlotte lol and she only got medicine for our holiday incase any of us get sick but she didn't get the plasters lol
...coz she couldn't find any ¬_¬

but shes planning on going to slough for another shopping next week so i'll be going to that coz i need some hair accessories (new hairbands, hairclips) seriously my hair is like hard to control now, i just really need to cut it when i'm at holiday. It'll be sad to see it go but a much more easier life lol i won't be cutting it all off though, just trim the fringe, so it doesn't reach my chest or something lol

but yeh, finished shopping! came home and my snack was nachos and pepsi =P mmmm
had that with some dip then was on the comp for awhile, went downstairs, and my bro and his gf were already there!
looking at photo albums!

O_o

...Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess it wasn't that bad coz the first album was just our holiday in america but the 2nd will not be mentioned and shall never be lol although there are pics of my mum with an afro and a mullet lol

she rules lol

anywayz, my bro bought some dvds which i already watched

The Ringer and Silent Hill<<<(watched that at bracknell with elwyne, michael and joaquin, it was sooo good but soo ghey coz they were holding each other and shit when they got scared lol) but yeh, we watched those in my room, had a bit of sweet and salty popcorn and they bought their alcohol but i didn't have any coz i still had my iron-bru lol also this was actually the first time i spoke to my bro's gf no actually convos, just a couple of sentences here and there made her laugh and yadda yadda yadda so all is good so far and it only took a couple of months to achieve that lol and this will be good for the holiday coz at some point i have to speak to her coz i'm stuck with her for a month! not to mention the long journey i have to face getting there! so i'm glad, it'll probably progress as time goes on but for now, its still a bit awkward, i haven't reached that bit when i'm totally confident, i still look down, i can't give her eye contact and that so i'm still trying lol but yeh, i just keep blabbering on about the subject, which makes my blogs long! so annoying lol but anywayz, after finishing watching the movies, havin some curry inbetween with pudding =P and i think it was just me and my dad that ate it, everyone else was stuffed but i was the one that ate more what with the nachos, kfc, popcorn, etc. i surprised myself for still eating all of it. i went on my comp afterwards, chatted to lisa for a bit, went on myspace and shit and this is where the weird shit happens i have this girl on my list that i've seen at the train station quite a couple of times, shes cute and when i found her on myspace, i added her straight away lol we didn't msg each other anything, just left things the way they were but coz i was bored and she was posting alot of bulletins i thought i might go on her profile and when i looked at her comments, i could not believe what i just saw

O_o

WTH?!??!

i was so shocked, i told lisa about it and she was like, they must like you lol

and she might've been right

i didn't know who the hell he was at first but when i messaged her she said it was one of my primary school mates!

paul lomas

i was like OMG! i didn't know it was him
he changed fuck loads!
looked well different from before
he turned emo, and i heard that from my other old school mate Alex but i didn't believe him coz hes a knob like that lol

but yeh moving on, i messaged her and he messaged me but i didn't notice til she told me lol

and looking back, she dropped a big massive hint!



O_o O_o!!!!!!!!!

when i read his msg, he said he sees me at the train station but i never noticed but i did see her lol

and look at this other comment coz i defo know its about me!



now i'm having heartattacks! lol

she actually watched me on monday! thats freaky aswell!

oh and also this girl goes to the same college as me and she sat in front of me aswell at the train once annnnnd whenever i never notice her, ramz sees her and just randomly blurts out 'hey thats that girl you think is cute!'

*SLAP*

¬_¬ thank u

but yeh, its obvious he likes me

but why?! lol i'm not much a good looking person lol

and this is my mate from primary school! its like weird!

and i like someone else =S

and this is what is leaving me in deep thought and keeping me up late

but i'm gonna end this now coz its nearly half 3

i'm gonna go and get more sleep and try not to think about

i hope =S

argh! just the thought of might seeing them after half-term is gonna scare the living shit outta me! well i guess thats the halloween kicking in lol

Worst day ever

i'm gonna push myself to do this blog

coz i spent nearly half an hour on doing one in myspace and when i finally wanted to post it, this is what i got:

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10/20/2006

i really wanna kill tom ¬_¬

anywayz, y'know the previous blog i done where i said i didn't have a bad luck last week when it was friday 13th?

well i think that bad luck has returned and is kicking my ass at this certain moment.

I shall explain...

Coz i my class didn't start til 10.30am and ramz and elwyne didn't wanna meet up, i decided to take the train at a later time.

Worst decision...

it meant i had to walk to the trainstation! So i finished getting ready, only having 40 mins to get there but thanx to my mum taking long to give me my pocket money, it changed to half an hour so i was hauling my ass!

not was it bad enough walking there but in the rain was the worst. Cause i wasted time doing my hair and coz of the rain it faded the gel away making it look like monkeys just took over my hair!

when i finally got there, 20 mins before the train was gonna take off, i was relieved and ready to get my ticket. Til i came in and theres this other random worker there and he asked if he could help...lemme put this in convo sense

dude: may i help u?
me: yeh i'm just gonna get a ticket here *points to pay desk*
dude: no just tell me what u want
me: err ok...um i need a return ticket to reading
dude: and how old are u?
*this is the part where i wanted to lie to get a cheaper ticket*
me: 15
dude. Date of birth?
me: 18/04/89..err i mean 91
dude: 89?
me: 91 sorry
dude: do you have any id?
me: no
dude: do you have a number i can contact for someone to bring evidence of your age?
me: what?! i just want my ticket!
dude: but i need proof of ur age
me: ok fine! *sigh* i'm 16
dude: right, that'd be £5.40
me: O_o

half of my pocket money was gone
and i was planning on buying new batteries with lunch aswell coz my ma didn't shop yet
i only got a chance to get a packet of crisps and a bottle of pepsi max
and that was for breakfast =[
i have no lunch and and i'm hungry as hell
i was lucky enough to get batteries for £3 but i only got 20p left now thanx to that bastard!

last time i'm gonna take the train late ¬_¬

next, my train stopped for 10 mins while it was 5 mins away from reading, not bad luck, but just retardedness

so yeh. money was the 1st thing i needed, i was so hungry, my tummy never stopped rumbling!

all i had to eat was chewing gum! O_o yum...?

anywayz, after i finished my class, i realized there are quite a few rude ppl in my class, like i got the task paper out of my back and was using it til one of my classmates just snatched it off me, and i was like, 'i'm using that, its mine!' and she was like, 'nah!' didn't even listen to the teacher, she just didn't care. If its on my desk, then its mine. Not my fault she can't look after stuff or fill up her bag with make-up and wigs!

geeez, bring up a kid with manners, ffs!

didn't care anyway, my other good mate was kind enough to lend me his so nehh, fucking scumbags lol

anywayz, the day was finished, ticket didn't work and blah.

bought my 10p crisps lol made some chips, etc

can't be bothered to go on, but right now, theres fucking drunk emos taken over britwell and its fucking scary

and its not halloween yet =S


anywayz, right now is a good time for this song


Get music codes at Bolt.

Six A.M.
The clock is ringing
I need to spend an hour snoozing
'Cuz I don't think I'm gonna make it

I punch in
I'm still sleeping
Watch the clock,
But it's not moving
'Cuz every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

Yesterday was the worst day ever
And tomorrow won't be better
It's history repeating(on and on)
Summer plans are gone forever
I traded them in for dishpan water
And every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

Whoa - oh
Every day is the worst day ever

It's so long
I can't go on
It's so long
I can't go on

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

Whoa - oh
Every day is the worst day ever

Whoa wo-oh whoa wo-oh whoa
Wo-oh whoa wo-oh whoa whoa wo-oh
The worst day ever
Whoa wo-oh

Stay

If only I could see your face one last time
And take me to that place that makes me alive
I want you to take me to a place
So much space to unwind
I wanna let you know I feel deep inside
And see the smile that's hidden in your eyes

I wanna stay with you
Don't ever leave
I need you here
Don't go

I'm sick and tired of missing you
And I hate, just wasting a second without you
And I'm lying here thinking
Will this life have a meaning
If I, don't have you at all

There's love at a special place
I wanna take you there
But I don't know if you'll stay

My Emo Hairstyle Called Larry

Will everyone please stop picking on me
I'm just a fringe on a person called Anne-Marie
Don't compare me to your fro's and your cheese
I'm just a plan ol' emo fringe

So brush me sideways
Til' I fall into place
I'm an half an hour procession

I'm not like my owner
That sits and cries in a corner
Her wrists don't bleed
Only her nose!!!

I never smile
I always cry
Don't wanna live
I wanna die
Cutting myself is the best suicide
Err...why you wanna do that?
'Cause I'm emooooooooooooooooooooo! Yeah!

Mrrr

Hey steph, you going to school today?
Mrrr
Hey steph, you wanna go to the mall?
Mrrr
STEPH! You wanna go out with mr thompson?
Mrrrrrrrrrrr
...mrr?

It's not a word in the dictionary
It's just a part of steph's vocabulary
And if she ever did get angry
I think mrrr would be the best word to use

LEO!
Mrr!
Green wing!
Mrr!
Crimewatch!
Mrrr!
World's wildest police chases!
Mrrr!

Broken

I'm just like a jigsaw puzzle
So idle and so fragile
I wanna be there for you
If I wasn't so unglued

If I had the chance, I'd take it
But I don't so I'll forsake it

'Cause I'm broken, I feel it in my heart
And I'm hoping, for my life to drift apart
I'm alone, I'm so insecure
I'm cold and I can't take anymore

Would you leave me alone like this
A cold stare or an ounce of bliss
Making me feel I'm accused
When there was nothing wrong I had to do

Your life
Is not
Anything special

Cilit Bang Bang Bang!

Oh no! more dust
So much fuss to clean this up
Oh no! more limescale
With this cillit bang
We will prevail!
Go!

This is so annoying
The ground dirt is so appalling
This is such a travesty
Oh! Barry Scott, will you please help me?

Barry! Barry! He's our man!
If he can't do it, Cillit Bang can!

My pennies are so dirty
Dip it in cillit bang and Bang! it's clean
Now I can be happy
To buy 1p sweets!

This is so annoing
Flash ain't even working
This is such a travesty
Oh Barry Scott! Please help me!

Barry! Barry! He's our man!
If he can't do it, Cillit Bang can!
Yeah! Go!

Barry! Barry! Where have you done?
Is it me or is the dirt already gone?
But it's ok
'Cause I already found a Cillit Bang of my own!

Barry! Barry! He's our man!
If he can't do it, Cillit Bang can!

Yay! For Cillit Bang!

Alone

I take one breath
With this I have nothing left
And I feel the pain
With this I have no strength to restrain
Myself
Your hand
I cling onto when there's nothing else
I don't know
Where to go
There's no direction I rely on

I wake
From this daze
Will you take the pain away from me?
Take the pain away to set me free

I'm all alone
So cold
Send me away to my home
To grow old
To die alone

Nothing would be much better than that

I'm so cold
So cold
I'll die alone
Would you let me die alone?
Nothing would be much better

Phase

Look inside my soul
Is my soul so empty
Words cut right through me
Is there something you know
Lying straight to my face
I can't believe it's another phase

Something so wrong that it can't be replaced
Something so lost that it can't be retraced

Will you tell me the question
'Cause I can't find the answer
So disgraced
It's such a disaster
You don't feel the same
Your feelings erased

Something so wrong that it can't be replaced
Something so lost that it can't be traced

So wrong, so gone
So lost and forgotten

Days

Take my life
Take my heart
Take the pieces that have been falling apart
I wanna make what's best of my time
And live each day without live a lie

I'm frustrated, complicated
Need to be stimulated
Motivated for the next day
Can't face the pain
Living life in agony
Each ounce of blood equals no sympathy

I live those days, no matter how long they go
I live each day like there's no tomorrow
I wanna go to a place for better days

Everything will burn, this life is turned
To a different direction, it is absurd
One day, one mind, one body, one soul
My heart just can't take anymore from this

Lost

Do I like you?
Do I hate you?
I can't decide
'Cause my mind is making different decisions
On of I can't have you at all
I know I can't
But I'm always here when you call
Then I fall

To the void, I'm lost again
I never ever want this to end
'Til the end

'Cause you're all that I need to survive
And you're everything that keeps me alive
I don't know where I would rather be
Here alone or spending time with you
I want to believe

Where is my mind
Where is my heart?
I can't find
where is your love?
Where's your hand that holds in mine?
If I fall I'll laugh about it
I feel no pain when I'm with you
And it's true
If I bleed, I won't cry about it
'Cause I'm only bleeding for you
I do

To the void, I'm lost again
When this ends, will we still be friends?
But I don't want this to end

My heart still beats for you
My lungs still breathes for you
Til' the end

'Cause you're all that i need to survive
And you're everything that keeps me alive
I don't know where I would rather be
Here alone or spending time with you for eternity
I want to believe

Hurry up...and just drop dead!

'You should...just go...drop dead'
'Why?'
'Cause...YOU SMELL!'

Why don't you just talk about it
Search it in the libary and read about it
I don't care
You're so fucked up and selfish
Living your life in a pool of shit
And you should know that

I don't like you
I just want to
Live
Stop being such an immature bitch
That you should be thinking
That life has a reason
To think
That no one likes you
Hurry up and just drop dead!

Who will be the next victim
A dude or maybe a chicken
Another failure (try again later)
Was it luck or just a good fuck?
How many guys have you sucked...in the past 5 minutes?!?

Many concerns of what happened that night?
Was it a one-night-stand or did you hold his hand and told him you loved him
Another tomorrow, another blow
How much time do you have left to go
Before this has reached it's end

May I inform you that...
I don't like you
I just want to live
Stop being such an immature bitch
That you should be thinking
That life has no reason
To think, that no one likes you
Hurry up and just drop dead!

Down

Selfish lies are spreading so fast
Too much drama keeps coming back
Does it have to be like this?
Another victim of silence
Another victim of violence
Why do the eyes keep staring at me?

Do you have to bring me down?
Turn my life around
Say stuff when I'm not around
Why do you always bring me down?

Lame accuses to say what you feel
Your words are wounds that never seem to heal
Do you have to be like this?
Another victim of violence
Why can't you just leave?

Down...
Down...
Down...

Bad Day

It's friday
And everyone is dead
Is it me or is it just a bad day

excuuuuuuuuuuse me but can you please...um...uh...GO THE FUCK AWAY!!!

Leave me the fuck alone
I'm too moody
Neeehhh, go away!

It's a tuesday
And everyone's bringing me down
Is it a bad day or is life just spinning me round?
Spinning me right round like a record baby right round round

These days of my life
I really need to survive
I just feel like running away
These days I lived twice
But I still survive
I'm sorry but I'm just having a bad day

Give Up Already

Please take me
I'm punished enough
I know I done alot of wrongs
But please don't make life anymore tough
To live
I know life ain't easy
And it's a dangerous place
Being locked in my room
Can I be anymore safe
Than this

Trying to pick myself up
From this path
Will I find the answers
Or find my own way back
Back home
I know I'm not the wisest
Or smartest at least
But I'm trying to live my life
Accomplish my dreams
That's all

Why does everything have to be in my way
Why can't I just go live the life I paid?
I wanna be free from all the things
That never meant a thing to me

To me
To me
To me

I Don't Know

I don't know why I still like you
I don't know why I still care
These days are so hard to get through
That's why I'm thankful that yo're always there

But you keep bringing me down
Taking seconds of my life away
Whenever you're around
I don't know if I wanna stay

Why do I always think about you
I never seem to have a chance
I can't bare to take my eyes off you
But you're expired, you never seem to last

I don't know why I keep thinking
Wishing for something that will never ever happen
I don't know why I still like you
I can't figure out why
I can't get you out of my mind

Sad

Drugs, sex and booze
Is all you ever seem to use
Hangover next day
Blowjobs and getting laid
You are so sad

Handjobs for crack
Smoking weed for cash
Smoking cigarettes everyday
Magic mushrooms on sunday
You are so sad

Thinking what you do is cool
You're just following a trend
You only do these things to fit in
You would do anything to fit in
Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaddddd!!!!

Repeat

I wake up at 6.45am
Getting ready for another life
Though it feels like another routine
I still don't know what's expected for me
Ready for another day at school
Got the same ol' people bending the rules

I don't know why I'm still here
I don't know why I even try

I wanna figure out
What my life is about
'Cause life is a journey
And it's getting too hard for me

Days passing in my head
Repeating over and over again
Though it feels like a week's gone by
I still can't figure out why
Ready to face the pain again
Repeating over and over again

She Don't Wanna Shave A Thing

another aerosmith mock up of the song I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
about the same person
enjoy =]

I could stay awake
And watch you stroke that goatee
Hear you scream while you are waxing
While I'm covering up my ears
Ready to jump out that window
I would rather die
Than be anywhere near you
I could cuss you everyday
Forever

Every moment you are near is like being in hell!

Don't want your shaving cream
Don't want a razor blade
You're too hairy baby
And she don't wanna shave a thing
'Cause even if you use shampoo
The new gilette will never do
You're still hairy baby
And she don't wanna shave a thing

I could stand by you
And see your beard growing
Having more hair than your father or gorillas
Everyday you're turning into chubaka
Not even a chainsaw can remove a strand of your hair
So there's no use for halloween
'Cause the kids will surrender
Stick your beard in the blender!

I don't want to see your smile
Or those hairy lips
I don't want to see the hair in your ears
Or those saggy tits
'Cause everytime you get more close
I just wanna move further away
Just stay further and further away
Till I reach Thailand
JUST FUCKING SHAVE!

Dude, She's Not A Lady

story behind this song:

well me and my bandmate were going over some cover songs we should do, aerosmith came up and this a mock up of Dude, Looks like a Lady. We wrote it about this girl that was the most annoying girl in our whole year and ppl kept making fun of her, saying she was hairy and looked like a man so it inspired us i guess
i know its mean, but seriously, you could not have spent a minute with this chick. shes a fucking nightmare

so here it is....


Dude she's not a lady!
Innit! Innit!
Dude she's not a lady!
Innit! Innit!
Did you have a sex change?
Yeah! Yeah!
Dude she's not a lady!

She's got unwanted facial hair
Wears calvin Klein underwear
I just can't bare to stare
At that beard grow
And she comes along
And looks like big foot's cousin!

When she gets turned on
I can see your hard on
You still go to hooters everyday
But what the hell? You're not even a lady!
She looks like an extra from
Planet of the apes woo!

Ooo, shes fucking hairy
doo be doo be doo doo

my songs

i'm really bored at the mo
no one is chatting on msn coz they're all gay fucking dead ppl
and coz i'm so bored, i thought i might post some written songs i done back when i was still in high school.
not my fault if they suck, these were all written in my english class lol

theres gonna be alot of posts going on so don't blame me XD and i'll put this on my livejournal if i can

so heres the first song

Face The Pain

It's 2am and I'm feeling down
Turn that smile to a frown
There are so many days like this
My thoughts are full of negativity
Feel the anger pushed in me
Why do I always feel like this?

I wanna be miles away
To not face the pain everyday
I don't want to face the consequences
Of just being me

I feel the pain from everyone
And yet they feel nothing
Why does it have to be like this?
The frustration I can't take no more
It's getting too much to ignore
What's the point when I don't even exist?

I wanna be miles away
To not face the pain everyday
I don't want to face the consequences
Of just being me

Don't leave me here
Can't bare to see the faces of deceit
Staring at me
Beating me down like an infection
When I look in the mirror, I see no reflection

boredom taking over

god, how annoying is it when ur really tired and you just wanna sleep but then u got ur mum calling screaming at the answering machine, so i got up, picked up the fone, blah blah yadda yadda, call ur bro to pick me up and shit, tried to, his fone was off, called my ma back and she had to walk home.

while that was going on, there was nothing to eat, so i made myself some pasta with a cup of tea. And its weird, i'm drinking tea alot now, probs coz there isn't any other decent drink in my house other than water. Bleh.


and i just realized, this is the 2nd blog i done on my day off coz i done a blog before on here on my day off. buuuuut i was supposed to go out with a friend today but she had to work so we have to plan it another, she'll name a day but i don't think she'll even remember to plan it.
like i asked her if i can borrow a cd for my comp, coz i need microsoft office on my comp for work for college and i asked her this like a month ago and she keeps coming up with the same things, 'oh my dad is still looking for it'

yuh huh, i'll just wait til hell freezes over, yah?

useless lol

i didn't really do much today, i wanted to sleep all morning but thanx to my mum that was ruined, i might go back to sleep soon though right after i get something to eat lol
i've just been stuck on my comp all day, editing my bebo and other crap. Right now, i'm listening to fightstar, i know alot of ppl have doubts about this band coz of charlie who used to be in a band called Busted. But it really doesn't bother me now, busted are in the past now. And the reason why i'm listening to this certain band at the mo, is coz their full album is on this site where u can listen to full stream albums, so basically, you don't have to buy em lol just listen to see if its good. So far i listened to:

10 Years - Killing All That Holds You
Amity Lane - The Sound Of Regret (best one so far!)
Breaking Benjamin - Phobia
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Don't You Fake It
Dashboard Confessional - Dusk And Summer
UnderOATH - Define The Great Line
Good Riddance - My Republic
MTV2 - All That Rocks Nominees
Fightstar - They Liked You Better When You Were Dead

gonna try and find more albums to listen to after fightstar.
the site is too kickass that i'm keeping it to myself =P

anywayz, off subject

something really lovey dovey now

i really like someone at the mo
dunno if that person knows yet
but my friend is making it abit obvious lol

but yeh, nothing would be better than to be with this certain person
apparently, the person is looking for someone aswell
and from what i've heard, this person had alot of experience in relationships and 5 people already like this person

and this person is a bit younger than me!

i've used the term 'person' alot haven't i? lol

i'm tryna keep it secret a bit just incase they read it lol and when i mean they, i mean my friends and etc.
so they won't see my softer side lol

anywayz, got nothing else to talk about, guess i might aswell go get something to eat then go sleep

yes i'm very intresting

i agree too lol

later fools

manga & college

3rd blog already?
lol yes i'm really bored but i rather not put everything in one blog coz it won't make sense so i'm doing seperate blogs =D

well i'm nearly finished with the manga i'm reading
i started from august to october lol
well you wouldn't really expect me to read all of a.i. love you, love hina, 2 books of samurai champloo, 3 books of .hack, 1 book of maharomatic, 4 books of negima in a short period of time lol

so i'm on one last book which is the 3rd volume of .hack //legend of the twilight and its a fucking fat book aswell! Look!



i'm gotta finish that til monday to give that back to my friend who lent that to me and he lent it to me 2 weeks ago lol coz i was still reading other books.

and also this upcoming monday my other friend that lent me most of the manga, is giving me vol 5 and 6 of negima! lol

more manga to read, its never gonna stop! lol



now for college

i'm doing travel & tourism at the mo, i finish next year and after i'm planning to do english coz of my mum and media part time hopefully. theres still alot of time to plan so i'm not sure whats gonna happen yet but i just hope i get to do what i want without my mum being all gay about it.

also, if i take foundation media, i might be in the same class as ramz and elwyne so thats kool =D and makes things a whole lot easier.

and to think, all i wanted to do was music, i'm going through a total different direction lol

friday 13th

did it really pass by?
i didn't even realize what day it was yesterday lol
i think if ppl try hard not to think about it, or won't worry about then you're home free and no bad luck for ya coz my day turned out pretty alrite yesterday. even though i did trip 4 times today but no big fall on the floor lmao hahaha she fell over crap lol
so yeh, not a bad 13th =P

camfrog

does anyone have it?

for those of you who don't know what it is
its like skype a bit but even better
you can chat to ppl through audio and video without it cutting off or stopping at every image, and theres no errors whatsoever
you get to go to chatrooms aswell and meet other peeps.

so i definitely recommend anyone to get it
and when u do tell me, so i can add ya
thankies

going to philippines in december

right, well i'm going to philippines in december (duh! title!)
and i just wanted to put down the flight times and shit so i could look back on it and write shit down so it may not be very intresting but who cares. I'm just putting this down for me =D

Monday 4th December (Qatar Airways) (hehe it sounds like guitar when u say it)
going to London Gatwick which is more further than heathrow! according to my mum its a 45 minute drive =|
oh how much joy that will be squished in a car with my bro's and my bro's gf there ¬_¬
i'm waking up at 6am and the flight is at 10am, class is economy, meals that will be provided is lunch, refreshment and complimentary, and i'll be stopping over at Doha at 7.35pm =|

I'll be at Doha for 3 hours and the flight departs at 11.30pm and it arrives at manila at 1.15pm!!!! so thats heading on to tuesday and omg! the flight must be like 14 hours! omg thats gonna be hell! class is still economy and meals provided is dinner, refreshment and complimentary. Oh how fucking lovely for 14 hours!

So after my month holiday, i'll be heading back at Thursday 4th January.
Economy class, the flight to manila to doha will be from 2.25pm to 7.40pm, i don't understand how that can be more shorter going back?!?! 5 hours only compared to 14 hours! thats just stupid! ho the hell does that make sense?!?! lol
ok i must calm down before this blog will be filled with capital letters and exclamation marks.
And for 5 hours, the meals provided will be dinner and a snack. A bloody good one i hope ¬_¬

and apparently when we arrive at 7.40pm, the flight back to london won't be til 2.10am! so i'm stuck in a crappy airport for 7 hours?!! i dunno what to do til then but hopefully a hotel would be nice coz i can't be bothered to stay in a fucking airport with god knows how many ppl staring at me weirdly, i get enough of that in college ¬_¬

after that cruelling wait, when its finally 2.10am, the flight to doha and london will finish at 6.55am so 4 hours of a flight which is not that bad i guess. Economy as always, meals provided will be dinner and continetal breakfast (whatever that is?!)

so yeh, its gonna be hell. A really long one.
i dunno what i can do to keep myself occupied for that many hours. I don't have any psps or nintindo ds's lol. I wish my friend elwyne would be generous enough to lend me his psp lol and some manga. I think i'll be ok with that. I don't even have a decent mp3 to keep me occupied, i have a cd player but not many cd's. and a tape player but they're so old lol but i guess i have to bring it just to keep the music going but then theres the battery problem. for that many hours, how could i listen to music for so long without my batteries going to waste. Sure i could buy some but my mum and dad hate buying such unescessary stuff for me lol even though i was lucky last year when my mum bought me batteries for my trip back to england from phillippines. Yup, they lasted all the way through, well i think i was stuck with 1 when i came back lol i like my music loud =P
oh and my mp3 is only 256mb so i can fit up to 80 songs apparently, but on mine at the mo, theres only 47! oh how lovely ¬_¬
hopefully when i come back, i can get an i-pod or something but that all depends on money.
What i'm planning to get when i'm there is a new fone, i-pod or mp3 with bigger size to put songs, a digi cam which i highly doubt, probs if there was a really really really good cheap one, i might have a chance =P and a few gifts for my friends, really cheap ones aswell! lol
i'm not gonna waste my money on cd's like last time. I bought loads and they end up getting stolen! oh and even though guitars are a bit cheap, i don't think i'll be buying a new one there coz the one i bought last time broke easily and i'm surprised i still have my electric from when my mum was there. Its lasted since march now so who knows lol
so yeh i'm asking for little amount of things but those things cost alot but apparently the i-pod over there is £30. so its defo the fone and digi cam i'm worrying about!
if only i had a job, this would make life so much easier lol

God, i've been blabbering on for ages!!! probs coz its a weekend and i got nothing else to do but read manga lol
so yeh, i gotta ask about my holiday to my tutor tomorrow and see if i can go and get a holiday form and i'll be settled. Also i've started to watch Akira (kick ass anime movie) from elwyne's psp, i'm 40 mins or so into it, hopefully i can finish it in the next couple of days. For those of you who are still clueless of Akira, watch this amv and you'll see

enjoy and goodbye! =P

kickass amv

southpark piccies

right, well i'm really bored at the mo and thought of an idea to make ppl south park picccies.

so if any of you are intrested, plz tell me and show me a pic of yourself so i can get an idea of what u want, yah?

k, laterz

tryna keep myself occupied

right, well i'm at home at the mo
i got a day off on thursdays from now on which is good
right now, i'm bored obviously, i woke up at 9am and made myself some curly fries then some vanilla icecream =P

moving on from that, last nite, i signed up on some new sites. coz even though i'm already signed up to alot of sites, i just get bored easily and just need to keep myself occupied =D

i also got some new pics from my mates digi cam which are pretty good even though i look like a serial killer in one of em ¬_¬

but yeh, i'm putting them on my sites now and i'll make a lil' photobucket widget here



theres also 2 extra pics so yeh lol

next topic, college
its turning out pretty well, i'm getting on with my classmates fine but what puts me off is that alot of ppl stare at you, its not just me, its my mates they stare at aswell. its really annoying but i'll get around to it coz one, they probs ain't got nothing good to look at and 2 they think they're normal when they're actually a bunch of faggots. and that goes for not only the ppl in my college, but the ppl at the train station aswell. they're the most annoying out of all ppl!

anywayz, before i go ape, i must end this and leave ya with some vids my friend done, one with me and him in mcdonalds (scuse her stupidity) and one he made which starrs my badge! lol

ENJOY!

Survey! Take it plz ill love u for it!

If you're a gurl title this "boy friend application" and if you're a boy then title this "girlfriend application". Repost this and see who's eligible to be your special someone. Have fun!!
Send it back if you think you could get the job... :)



Name:
Age:
Phone Number:
Location:
Height:
Hair (color and style):
Eyes:
Piercings/tattoos:


What Do You Think Of My..?
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manners:
Friends:
Decisions:



W0ULD Y0U...
[] go out with me?
[] give me your number?____________
[] kiss me?
[] let me kiss you?
[] watch a movie with me?
[] take me out to dinner?
[] drive me somewhere
[] make love to me?
[] be my bf/gf?
[] hug me?
[] buy me food?
[] take me home to meet your family?
[] would you let me sleep in your bed if i didn't have one?
[] sing car karaoke w/ me?
[] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
[] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[] give me a piggyback ride?
[] come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[] leave me when things get hard


D0 Y0U...
[] think im cute?
[] want to do me?
[] want to kiss me?
[] want to cuddle wit me?
[] want to hook up with me?


AM i...
[] smart?
[] cute?
[] funny?
[] cool?
[] intersting to talk to?


HAVE Y0U EVER...
[] thought about me?
[] thought there might be an "US"?
[] thought about hookin up with me?
[] found yourself wanting to kiss me?
[] wished i were there

another damn servey answer this one to or else

Answer these and send them back to me then repost so people can respond to you... Honestly. I will answer the same questions for you. Do it!

1. Give me your number?

2. Have sex with me?

3. Let me kiss you?

4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?

5. Let me take you out to dinner?

6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?

7. Take a shower with me?

8. Be my bf/gf?

9. Have a fling with me?

10. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?

11. Buy me a drink if i didnt have money?

12. Take me home for the night?

13. Would you let me sleep in your bed?

14. Sing kareoke w/ me?

15. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?

16. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?

17. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

18. Do you think im cute or hot?

19. Do you like my style?

20. Do you think im funny?

21. Do you care about me?

22. Would you cry if i died?

23. Would you stop me if i tried to commit suicide?

24. Would you dance with me?

25. Would you sing happy birthday to me?

27. Would u marry me?

28. 69 me?

29. Do me in a public place?

30. Bring me home and do me in your bed?

31. Take advantage of me if I was drunk?

32. Take advantage of me if i wasn't drunk?

33. Strip for me?

34. Give me a lap dance?

35. Grab my ass?

36. Let me Grab your ass?

37. Fuck me all night?

38. Watch cartoons with me?

39. Return my calls?

servey answer or die

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. How have I affected you?

5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?

7. How long do you think we will be friends?

8. Do you love me?

9. Do you have a crush on me?

10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?

12. Physically, what stands out?

13. Emotionally, what stands out?

14. Do you wish I was cooler?

15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

17. Am I loveable?

18. How long have you known me?

19. Describe me in one word.

20. What was your first impression?

21. Do you still think that way about me now?

22. What do you think my weakness is?

23. Do you think I'll get married?

24. What makes me happy?

25. What makes me sad?

26. What reminds you of me?

27. If you could give me anything what would it be?

28. How well do you know me?

29. When's the last time you saw me?

30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

31. Do you think I could kill someone?

32. Have we ever had sex (with or without your knowledge)?

33. Do you miss me?

34. Do you think i miss you?

35. Am I Hot?

36. Am I Ugly?

37. Are you going to put this on your MYSPACE and see what I say about you