another one of those random moods...

well its been long since ive done this...
too much has happened since ive last blogged but i rather not talk about it now since its gonna take ages so ill leave it for another time
atm i feel like i really need someone here tbh
someone i can love
i have a gf at the moment but i hardly see her since shes so far away
i might get to see her soon but it wont be for awhile and idk whether ill look forward to it or not
its just been quite awhile since ive got imitamate with someone and just need someone to...y'know lol
it sounds quite sad but i cant help it. im alrite with my gf but im not proper in love with her
i wanna be mesmerized by someone, someone i can be fully in love with.
i love my gf to bits but this is just one of those weird feelings.
long distance relationships can do this to ppl and i would know since ive been in plenty of them.
i woke up this morning, proper hateing my gf for some reason. it was mainly coz of the fact how she never really text me much coz she didnt wanna waste her 500 texts so soon but then i had 100 left so i dont see why shes worrying. but then again when she did have loads of texts she would text me non-stop and always get worried and i used to get annoyed by it so it goes both ways really. idk...im having seconds thoughts about this and i think its because i got other shit going on aswell which could be affecting this whole situation.
im gonna need fags and booze to get through this one...

night